Hiatus

To: My Blogger Brothers & Sisters,

Yep, I'm taking a little blogger break.

My life is a shambles and I need to take care of it. My marriage is on its way down the toilet. My daughter and grand-daughter are on their way back to Wisconsin or they'll be homeless by August. And yesterday, I found out that I'll be losing my job of 10 years in about 2 weeks.

Why do I expose all of this to you? I tell you this because I consider a lot of you like family. We've shared so much together over the past few years. I feel like I know so many of you even though we may have never met face-to-face yet.

Even though things are pretty crappy right now, I have to trust that there are better days ahead in all of these areas of my life. It's always darkest before the dawn.

Dean "D-Day"

P.S. Prayers will be gratefully accepted.

The Prison Inside Me

There were storms all around me.
Battering me from all sides.
So I ran.
I ran to where I thought it was safe
And I locked myself inside.

But now the beast is in here with me
And I lost the keys somewhere along the way.
I spend my days staring through my prison bars
And realize that the storms have long passed.
A lone ray of sunshine peers into my dungeon
And gives me hope that maybe…someday.
Oh, how I long to envelop myself in its warmth.
But I’m in a prison of my own making
Unsure of how long my sentence may be.

The beast now gnaws at my bones
And my screams for help go unheard,
Except for that little ray of sunshine
That continues to give me hope.
The door finally opens a crack
And I take a peek outside.
It looks so beautiful on the other side.
Why am I so afraid to step out into the light?
So afraid of what I’ve longed for.
This prison shackles me tight
Taunting that I will never leave.
But to give up hope that I may someday be paroled…
Never.

The beast is almost dead now
And my time is almost served.
I’m getting ready to step out into the light
And take my little ray of sunshine by the hand.
Never to run from the storms again.
Never to imprison myself again.